My new place!!!!! 2-10-19!!!!💋💋💋💋💋
Feb 11, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=crW0CKc0GeU

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yeah I've lost it I have and that's okay
no I worked so much today on this room
the lime-green I had to bring the
lime-green in somewhere but the lawn
dream is uh well that's not supposed to
show oh I'm not getting away from it
it's a it's a here okay it's here
anyways
yes this is my new little out stuck look
you could see oh um yes I was very very
busy to say the least all day long it
was crazy it was think crazy about it so
I organized everything I've showed you
guys everything right right I've got the
tip of it all um but I organized finally
got like my shelves organized I got my
little station behind me organized like
it looks so much better now
Oh finally I feel like I am getting a
little bit better where things have gone
um because it's just been crazy like I
just I feel like lost in this room
because first of all I can't stand the
black and green walls I just can't
I've if I'm staring at him it's one
thing but when I am like
editing and all I can see is black and
green walls
it tries me not so I was just like okay
you have got oh we've got to fix the
situation so I I did my own little
touches I did I did my own touches so
let me show you guys what I did so
here's my wall yep
you see it it's a curtain it's a curtain
it's all yep you can see the green from
behind there and then here is my
shelving unit I got it all organized my
juris are yes you can see mr. beautified
over there I did organize all of this
area and organized that got my necklaces
yes I feel more put together like I feel
like I just feel better about the
situation so anyways I kind of feel like
I'm in a home setting we're gonna get a
new blanket for it though for the my bed
well our couch bed whatever you want to
call it we don't sleep in it we just sit
in it so we're a little bit a little
we're still getting things done like I
hung a curtain no actually I hung the
curtain for me it's actually a sheet but
do you know what nobody sees it so it
works but it just it makes me feel
better that I've got like I'm I feel
like I'm putting a little bit more
effort into my area and I feel like at a
home setting when I'm sitting like this
so it makes me just calm but with that
it took a lot of time like when I tell
you it took me all day it is going on
seven o'clock and I'm just sitting down
to now vlog and I couldn't vlog during
the time because
I was like in some short shorts and a
tank top and I was just a bust in a move
so and now I'm eating my whatever you
want to call it my low-carb
it just works out that way skinny pop
this is my lunch and my dinner no
actually I just only had a little bit
but I just needed something because I
haven't I haven't taken my meds and with
this medicine the one that I'm on you
have to have some type of something on
your stomach so that you're not feeling
too like queasy so I just thought well
I'll grab a little bit of skin you pop
eat that um so I can at least pop me
antibiotic because I am definitely
feeling so much better like my fingers
are healing up if I could just stop
picking out the rest of them
we'll be good
I think it's snowing but anyways so I
wanted to read our book um I'm excited
to see what tonight's has to say because
you know we are this book just hits it
like every time oh okay so yeah so I'm
on the right one it is says it is it
says some things try to make you out
this let's start that again
some things try some things tried to
take you out this week but if you're
reading this it didn't work remember
the weapon will be formed but it will
not prosper Wow some things try to take
you out this week which yes
I can tell I can definitely go with that
one but if you're reading this it didn't
work
remember the weapon will be formed but
it will not prosper and that means so
much because so many things happen this
week that I could have allowed to become
a weapon and totally kill me out like
totally just bombard me out and I didn't
let it I didn't let it because it's not
I'm not going to allow something to have
that much control over me and allow it
to you know make the person that I don't
want to be so honestly that speaks so
much to me
because if if I have to say it I totally
can say that this last week was a really
rugged week for me I mean it was just it
was it was a really hard week but you
know what that's that's the great thing
about having restarts and I look at
Monday's as amazing amazing times to
make restarts and I always I embrace
Mondays like people embrace Fridays I
love Mondays Fridays it doesn't make a
difference I'm a stay-at-home mom so you
know I work 24 hours a day seven days a
week
but Monday's are that that start you
know in the evening time on Sunday we
get together we fresh in the house we
make it all nice and fresh and you know
I finish although you know the week's
worth of laundry on Sunday so we could
start fresh with clean baskets and it's
just Monday's are my embrace day and
also Monday's are a great time to say
okay this is what I have set out for me
this week this is what I'm going to get
done and I'm not gonna allow X Y & Z to
step in front of it and to stop it and I
have that choice to allow that to not
happen because we are on a fresh start
week so
yeah anyways I wanted to read some
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messages um as always I don't proofread
I don't know what I'm gonna read I
apologize ahead of time if there's
anything negative um okay let's left you
guys up for a minute
bring guys back down yeah - got to fix
my leg here what's going to sleep um oh
and we also flip my mattress from the
top and move the bottom to the top oh my
gosh what a difference
I have flattened out that side now over
there no nobody you could tell the
difference I was just like wow I'm
sitting kind of high now um but I again
I just want to make it clearer that you
know there is nobody that makes a
comment that's better than anybody else
everybody you know everybody does their
messages I love everybody's messages
there is not one message better than
another so here we go um let's see
Chrissy G just a friendly reminder
always finish out antibiotics even if
you feel better intake with yogurt if
needed thank you so much I know I am the
worst when it comes to that but I will
be proud to show you guys I am almost
done but I have been taking them around
the clock like I'm supposed to these
ones are take by mouth every six hours
and I have been doing it so yes I know
it is not fun to take medicine but I
know it's needed okay
oh right on the same video life by our
ICU life by Jen girl yes last August
when I was hospitalized for my kidney
infection three days before I went to
the ER I had that burning for literally
a few hours one day then it went away a
day later I came down with full like
symptoms it went that fast the ER doctor
was surprised it progressed so quickly
don't let yourself get septic that is
miserable still watching your video more
comments to come laugh out loud
Alicia Lockhart commented underneath
that I did it too it came on fast and
hard please don't quit taking meds it
just because you feel better you have to
finish them girlie they kept me in the
ER for seven hours on IV antibiotics and
pain meds whoa yeah yeah well Amy ain't
gonna be doing that one mm-hmm no no
can't can't do that um Susie by the sea
great video sweet girl thank you anchors
wait I like that line think I will
borrow it it was on the I was on the
struggle bus lord knows we have all been
there before
just get off at the next stop very well
put that way and you know I didn't even
know that saying actually I was watching
Melissa
which is H Kitty vlogs she was seeing
that I think it was in yesterday's yeah
it was yesterday's video I want to say
she said she was on the struggle bus and
I was like it's like perfectly said I'm
on the struggle bus and I am on the
shuttle bus but that's a great way to
put it just get off at the next stop and
I did I got off of it and I'm feeling
great I was gonna workout today but
because I mean I busted sweat doing this
room cleaning it still and I still have
more of the house to do um I just
decided to not do my exercise tonight
but I will do it tomorrow so stay tuned
see
let's do a few MOA phew MOA Seattle
Sapphire I'm not gonna read the whole
name we all know who you're talkin who
we're talking about I am craving a salad
now I am glad ollie is okay the snow has
been crazy here in Seattle you need to
check out my vlog it has fix of it yes
please Seattle sapphire has a channel
could you please go over and give her a
shot a shot don't give her a shot please
don't give her a shot but that totally
came out wrong
could you guys please go over and take a
check out and see about her channel it's
I love her channel and I would love to
say hey go give her a shout-out and
check it out
not a shot please don't give her no
shots no shots at all
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and yes I have been hearing on the news
how bad it is in Seattle so please be
careful I don't know if you have to
drive anywhere or anything like that and
if you do please be careful um Ali's
doing good thank you
and yes the salad looked amazing and it
did taste very well okay and if I
remember I will try and link Seattle
sapphires link in my description box so
you guys can jump over and take a look
um foodie Beauty also great video lots
of love girl thank you so much
sweetheart and I am so proud of you as
well you have been doing amazing and you
know even though we have our struggle
days we all do we're human hello there
is not one person I'm not gonna tell you
right now that does not have a struggle
day and you know what we all struggle we
all have our ups we all have our lows
and seeing you trying and pursuing your
dream of what you want to do is just
makes my heart seen and seeing you
yesterday doing your sit down workouts
girl you know what you do what you can
do that is the same with me I have to do
sit-down videos
I can't do stand-up once because my knee
screams at me when I do so yeah there's
no no shade there when I say good job in
congrats on the weight loss that you're
doing it is just also amazing and you
know what don't beat yourself up if you
do have a binge date don't beat yourself
up if you have a gain week look at me
I'm up what 5 pounds you guys yeah Amy's
up 5 pounds this week that is not a
number I want to see but it is what it
is I'm not gonna allow myself to beat
myself up no no no no I'm not gonna do
it anyways congrats babe love you thank
you for making sure you're on my channel
showing me support because I am shooting
the most support towards you as I can
because girl I you got this
you've got this and you're doing amazing
huh let's see shoot the another
great video that cell looked amazing I
am so glad he wasn't hurt an awesome
video thank you thank you thank you and
thank you you're amazing I love you and
I can't wait to watch I haven't seen you
going live a couple days now what's
going on what what has occurred because
I need that porch time I need that porch
talk and I need to see Charlie so baby
gee Josie honestly I don't remember how
I came across your channel but I am glad
I did I am also on a journey myself
congratulations on your journey and
thank you so much for joining my channel
and becoming such a great environment
you guys I can't talk today I'm so glad
that you have become a part of our
community and have become such an
amazing person I appreciate all the
support that you have given me and I
will be here to show you the same amount
of support because everybody deserves it
let's see tad da love that salad plate
thank you success in YouTube just like
success and anything brings another
group of success and drama true oh wow
there are YouTube reviewers maybe that's
the path I should go
that's the big deal with some Muslims
they just recommend Quran prayer etc and
don't acknowledge mental health is a
real issue hum day love this is changing
little by little so for the first part
yes thank you myself
I love it but usually there's a solid
made and there's like two of us usually
eating out of that sound Bowl me and oli
um and yes I agree with you success
brings a lot of that and when you put it
out for everybody of course you're kind
of asking for problems so it happens I
know and yes there are YouTube reviewers
I like watching them sometimes it can be
brutal sometimes they can be written
down right rude and mean but I watch
them sometimes well some of them most of
the ones that I watch I just get a kick
out of watching them there's a few that
I truly honestly enjoy on some of the
things that they talk about um but I
don't have any I don't have nothing
against reviewers they they're there for
a reason and there's quite a few of them
others some some know how to do the job
but then there's some that I think are
more generic I don't know if that's the
right word to use but I kind of think
that is how I see it like there's some
that are successful reviewers they can
still be very brutal but that's what a
reviewer is that's their job I know but
there are some that are just kind of
Merrick and just like alright you really
don't know what you're doing um but we
gotta love everybody so that's how that
stands and and yes I will you know I
will chime in on that part about the
Muslims I think that because you know
mental health has been such a hush-hush
thing for so many years and it's not
just because of Muslims I think that's
been the realm of reality for everybody
I think that it was always looked down
on by most people and I think it's
something that a lot of people just were
shamed when they said they had a problem
so in return families kept it you know
quiet you know
up in a blanket and hope that if they
gave a pacifier to the person it would
quiet them up and make them happy but
when you're dealing with mental health
it just doesn't go away and that's the
thing is that you know you can give
people things to help but if you don't
get to the core of the problem you will
never succeed with the person actually
being able to get to the core of the of
where this mental health issue is coming
from to be able to come out of it so I
think that it's becoming more talked
about I think that it's becoming more
mork's well I know it's more accepted in
in life in general and I think more
people are coming out of the Woodworks
and saying hey you know I've struggled
from this and I've had problems and I
need help like I am the number one
person if I'm gonna have a problem
I won't help I don't enjoy not feeling
good or having dark thoughts or you know
not knowing how to live life in a
certain way I don't enjoy life like that
and I would never ever ever want
somebody to live life that way either so
for me I would never ever shine it as
something that's wrong I think that I
give so much credit to the ones as
myself that step out and say hey I need
a little extra help and I need a little
bit more you know push rather than you
know being preached down on and told
that I'm wrong or whatever it might be
so anyways um Jaqueline minutes I can't
find you on Instagram so for some reason
I don't know why but my Instagram I went
and checked that out and for some reason
mmm Instagram or I somebody changed my
name from ami Ramadan to ami / /
youtuber or something I I have no idea
so I went back and I changed it again so
it's ami Ramadan so I think you should
be able
see it I'm gonna go into my description
box and make sure that that's not been
changed as well because that was um a
little interesting when I seen that I
thought why would it be saying that so I
don't like honestly I have no idea how
in the world that changed but it did so
I'm hoping that I got that I got it
taken care of
oh let's read one more happy mama it's
such a great feeling when you know you
have a car that will keep your baby safe
Arminian via our minivan is nothing
fancy but it definitely could take a
whack and still keep the children safe I
am sorry to hear that you had a time
when suicide was the only option it's
not nice but I'm glad you're getting
through it thank you so much I truly
truly appreciate that entire comment and
you're a hundred percent right like I
didn't know that Olli was like yeah did
you know that Ford Flex is rated one of
the very safe cars for families and I
didn't I didn't know that they even had
that so when he shared that with me and
then knowing that he went through that
yesterday it just it may made me feel so
much better knowing that okay you know
what I mean clearly my husband was okay
and you know he didn't even his neck
nothing hurt him so that was a good
thing um and yeah the suicide was a
really tough thing and like I said I
will talk about that on another chant
and have another channel I'll talk about
that on another video because I think it
deserves its own video because it's it's
a deep one so I think that's something
that I would like to share all at one
time and and be able to address it all
at once so anyways well you guys it is
7:30 I am going to close I need to go
and take a shower and you know my kids
in the bath mine is gonna take a shower
for tomorrow for school and I need to
find something to eat for dinner so
I'm gonna close here I hope you guys had
a fantastic wonderful amazing weekend
and remember tomorrow is Monday don't
dread it make sure that you embrace it
make the best of it and tell yourself
that it is your restart for the fresh
week and be able to set your goals high
and reach every one of them
I will check in with you guys tomorrow
bright and shiny in the morning I have
counseling I think unless it gets really
nasty then we're not but I will check in
with you guys either way and show you
guys what we're up to
until then sweet dreams you guys
